I Say Unto You Vol 1 02

The first question:
Osho,
What am I to do with the Jesus I thought I knew and loved for so long?
The question is from Chintana, who has been a nun. She has suffered enough by being a nun, and suffered for sins she has never committed. To be a nun is a kind of masochism, a kind of self-torture inflicted upon oneself in the name of Jesus, in the name of Buddha – only the names differ, the torture is the same. And when you are torturing yourself, your relationship with Jesus or Buddha or Mahavira is going to be pathological.
Relationship is healthy only when there is joy, when there is celebration, when there is full acceptance of life and all that it brings.
When there is denial, rejection, when you are restricting your vital parts and you are destroying yourself, the relationship is not really a relationship. You are in love with your misery, and you call your misery Jesus. Never be in love with your misery. If you are in love with your misery, then wherever you are, you will be in hell. To be healthy means to be in love with joy. Even if sometimes misery happens, it is unnatural. It has to be lived, but it is accidental, it is not natural. Joy is natural.
All kinds of pathological people have gathered together around Christ down the ages. In fact they are not in love with Jesus, they are in love with the cross. That’s why I call Christianity “crossianity.” It has nothing to do with Christ – Christ is just a symbol – the real thing is the cross, the death, the suffering that Jesus went through. You are in love with that. But the mind is very cunning; it can always rationalize its prejudices. It can always find arguments, reasons to support its own prejudices.
Now, about poor Chintana… I feel sorry for her; she is in a kind of turmoil here. It is bound to be so. Here, the whole message is “Alleluia”; the whole message is of ecstasy, love, joy; celebration is the key word here. And for many years she has been a nun, so her whole past is against the present. But if she goes on thinking that she has been in love with Jesus, then it will be very difficult for her to drop her misery, because how to drop Jesus? And Jesus is so beautiful, how can one gather courage to drop Jesus?
There is no need. I am bringing you a healthy Jesus. I am bringing you the real Jesus. The real Jesus was never on the cross, only the body was on the cross. The real Jesus never died, the real Jesus cannot die. You cannot die, nothing ever dies. That which dies was not really part of you. The nonessential dies, the essential continues. Nobody can kill you – I mean you, not your body. Your body can be killed. But you are so identified with the body that when you see Jesus on the cross, you think Jesus is on the cross.
Not for a single moment was Jesus on the cross. He cannot be – he knows himself. There is no way to crucify him. That is the hidden meaning of the phenomenon of resurrection: he resurrects because in the first place he has never died. If he had died, then there would have been no possibility of resurrection. Only the body, the outermost shell, has been killed. But because of this – this cross, this death, this suffering, this martyrdom – Christianity became obsessed with death, became very morbid about death. And people are very afraid of death, frightened, scared. The more afraid they are, the more frightened they are, the more the cross becomes very significant.
A Krishna playing his flute does not look real. Who can play the flute in this ugly life, on this miserable earth where people are killing each other, exploiting, oppressing? Where human beings exist only in the dictionary, in language? Just the other day I was reading about Adolf Hitler’s concentration camps. In one concentration camp forty-five lakh people were killed, murdered, gassed. But they made a good profit out of it. That was the real thing with it. The hair was sold, the bones were sold to the glue factories, the eyes were sold, everything was sold. Papers have been found, correspondence has been found in which factories were haggling over the price. The officers were haggling about human beings’ hair – how much they were going to ask. “When they are killed, how much are you ready to pay for their bones?” Hitler was doing business with death, through death. It was a good, going concern. They were giving almost nothing to the prisoners to eat. It was very cheap, and within two weeks the prisoner would be gone. They had to wait just two weeks. So the cost was very low and the price was very good. The hair was going to the wig-makers, the bones were going to the glue factories, and so on and so forth.
How can one play the flute here where Adolf Hitlers exist, where Hiroshimas happen? Krishna looks like a dream. Christ looks very real. But let me tell you, Christ was also playing on his flute when he was on the cross. The flute continues – it makes no difference whether in life or in death. The flute is eternal. Let me tell you, Krishna is more real. And the Christ that you have created is more or less a figment of your mind. You don’t know the real Christ. So listening to me is going to be difficult for you, because I will be revealing a totally different Christ that you are not acquainted with. You have a Christ preached to you by the priests. You have a Christ painted by the Vatican. You have the Christ visualized by so many hysterical saints.
There has been a long tradition of pathology in Christianity. Christians say Jesus never laughed. Now this is utter nonsense. I say to you that Christ laughed his whole life – only he could laugh, who else? But Christians say he never laughed. They want to depict him as very sad, very burdened. They project their sadness onto Jesus, they project their misery onto Jesus. Jesus becomes a screen, and you go on projecting your mind onto him. Jesus laughed, enjoyed, loved. If you go into the Gospels without your prejudices, you will find it. How can you think otherwise about a man who was having parties, eating well, moving with women, drinking – yes, wine was not unknown to him, he loved it. He was a very, very happy man. It is impossible to conceive that a man who drinks, eats well, loves eating, loves friends, never laughed. But Christians have depicted Jesus according to their own projection. The projection is of their misery. And then Jesus becomes just an excuse to be sad, to be miserable. That’s why in the church there is no laughter, no joy, no celebration.
Churches have become graveyards. It is not accidental that the cross has become the symbol. It should not be the symbol. I can understand your difficulty, particularly Chintana’s difficulty. She says, “What am I to do with the Jesus I thought I knew and loved for so long?” You have not known Jesus.
Through me there is a possibility to know Jesus. If you are courageous enough, you can know Jesus for the first time. Because you can know Jesus only through a man who has attained to christ consciousness. A Krishna can be known only through a man who has attained to krishna consciousness. And they are the same thing: krishna consciousness, christ consciousness, buddha consciousness – the transcendental.
You cannot understand Jesus through a priest. He himself has not known. He has read, he has thought, he has contemplated, he has speculated, philosophized. Yes, he has a very cultivated mind, he knows the scriptures. But to know the scriptures is not to know Jesus. To know Jesus you will have to know your innermost nothingness. Without knowing it you cannot make anybody else acquainted with Jesus. You have an opportunity here to come in contact with the reality that was there two thousand years before. The window is open again and you can enter – you can have a glimpse at least. But if you go on carrying your ideas about Jesus, then it will be difficult. Rather than entering through me and coming to know Jesus, you will start condemning me and you will remain surrounded by your own ideas, and you can always find reasons.
It happened in Montreal – it can happen only in Montreal…

Two nice looking men were walking down the street, hand in hand. There was a married couple in front of them, arguing. One of the men squeezed the other’s hand and said, “See, dear, I told you mixed marriages don’t work.”

You can always find an argument. Now the marriage between a man and a woman is a “mixed marriage.” How can it work? Marriage between a man and man can work; it is homogeneous. The homosexual can find that argument. If you have a certain prejudice in the mind you can always find support. The world is so big that it supports all kinds of things. And what can your idea of God, or Christ, or Krishna be? You don’t even know yourself, Chintana. Not knowing yourself, how can you know Jesus? And whatsoever you know is going to be wrong. It will be more or less guesswork, and guesswork done in immense ignorance.
It is like painting a picture of Jesus on a dark night when there is no light. You have never seen him, and you have never touched colors, and you don’t know how to paint, and the night is dark and not even a single candle is there. You go on painting, and you don’t know how to paint, and you don’t know how to keep the brush in your hand, and you don’t know how to mix the colors, and you cannot see which color is which – the night is so dark. You go on painting, and in the morning when you see it, you say, “This is Jesus.”
It is all guesswork, in deep ignorance. Whatsoever man has thought of God is just guesswork. If you are honest you will not be interested in any guesswork. God cannot be guessed at – he can be known but not guessed at. How can you guess at God? How can you imagine God? There is no way to do it. Whatsoever you do is going to be wrong. The best way is not to guess but to drop all prejudices that you have been taught and conditioned with. Become a pure nothingness, a mirror, that’s what meditation is all about. In that nothingness your eyes open for the first time. You start seeing that which is.

Two goldfish were swimming around and around in a glass bowl. One announced crankily that he had become an atheist.
“Fine, fine,” scoffed the other. “Now just explain to me who changed the water in this bowl!”

Now, a goldfish in a bowl thinks that God changes the water. Your guesswork about God cannot be more than that. That’s why if you say to people that there is no God, they say, “What are you talking about? Then who created the world? Who changed the water?” Stupid ideas because God is not the cause, and the world is not the effect. God has not created the world. If he has created this world, then that is enough proof that he is absolutely mad; it will prove only that, nothing else.
God has not created the world. God is not really a creator. It will be far better to say that God is the world. God is not the creator but the creativity. The flower opening is God. Not that God is standing there and opening it – not separate from the flower and forcing the petals to open. God is the flowering, the star shining in the night. Not that God is pouring oil into it, or some fuel, and running it and managing it somehow; God is that light. Not that God has created you; you are that. The Upanishads say, “Tattvamasi: Thou art that.” They are far closer to the truth. In the East we have always depicted God as a dancer, not as a creator – God as Nataraj, the master dancer. Why? There is something immensely meaningful in that concept.
God is not a painter, because when a painter does a painting, the painting becomes separate from the painter. When the painter has finished with the painting, the painting has its own existence. The painter may die, the painting can live. And when the painter has finished the painting, it may be beautiful but it is dead because the painter cannot put his breath into it. It is not possible. He cannot pour his vitality into it, his life into it. The painting may be beautiful but a painting is a painting – it is dead.
God is not a painter, God is not a potter; God is a dancer. What is the meaning of it? In dance, the dancer and the dance are one, they can never be separated. That is the beauty of the dancer. The poet is separate from the poetry, the potter is separate from his pottery, the painter is separate from his painting, the sculptor is different, separate, from his creation, and so on and so forth. Only the dancer is not separate. The dancer is the dance. And when the dancer is really in the dance, there is no dancer in him, all disappears. It is just pure, vibrant energy, it is just pure energy dancing. There is no ego in it. The dance comes to perfection when the dancer dissolves into it. But the moment the dance stops, you cannot find the dance anywhere, it is not separate from the dancer.
One thing more: the dance cannot exist separate from the dancer, and the dancer too cannot exist separate from the dance. When you say that this is a dancer, if he is not dancing, your description is not right. A dancer is only a dancer while in dance, otherwise he is no longer a dancer. Then it is a linguistic fallacy that you go on calling him a dancer because he was dancing yesterday. Then yesterday he was a dancer. Or tomorrow he will dance again. Then tomorrow he will be a dancer again, but right now if he is not dancing, then he must be somebody else. If he is walking, he is a walker; if he is running, he is a runner; if he is sitting, he is a sitter – but not a dancer.
Dancer and dance exist together. In fact, they are not separate. God is not the creator of the world. God is its creativity, its very soul. He is in the trees, and in the rocks, in you, in me – he is everywhere, he is all. But to know this God you will have to drop guessing, because when he is inside you what is the point of guessing? Why don’t you go in? Why don’t you close your eyes and travel inward? Come to a point where no thought exists and you will know what God is. And to know God is to become Christ. And by becoming Christ, you will know what Christ is. By tasting christhood, you will know what Christ is. How can you have any idea of Jesus? That idea will be Catholic, will be Protestant, will be this or that. That will be your idea and your idea is the barrier – beware of it. All your ideas have to disappear. Your mind has to cease for Christ to be.
So it will look very paradoxical. I am saying if you are not a Christian, not a Hindu, not a Jaina, not a Buddhist, only then will you know what truth is. By being a Christian, how can you know Christ? Your very Christianity will be a barrier. By being a Buddhist you cannot know Buddha. Your ideology will function as a wall, a Wall of China. Drop all ideologies, and don’t be a nun.
She has now become a sannyasin; she is no longer a nun, but deep inside she still is. When she comes to me, I can see two personalities together, split. When she comes to me, a part of her being is with me – she has taken the jump and become a sannyasin – but I can see the Christian is still there and very strong. And there is every fear that when she goes back to Australia, she may again get into the old nonsense. I am not yet certain about her, because the Christian is very strong there. She has devoted her life in a certain way; she has lived in a certain way with very wrong notions. She has been anti-life, and now I am trying to bring her back to life. I am calling to her just as Jesus called to Lazarus, “Come out, Lazarus!” – and he was dead. But Lazarus was a beautiful man – he came out.
People always think Jesus did the miracle. My idea is that Lazarus did the miracle. Anybody can call – that is not the point. The point is that Lazarus came out. He had been dead for four days, and nobody believed that it was possible. When Lazarus died, Jesus was not in that town. But Lazarus was a follower, and his two sisters were Jesus’ followers, so the two sisters sent a message: “Come as quickly as possible. Your beloved disciple is dead. You can save him, you can still bring him back.” Jesus came in his own leisurely way – not with the American rush – he came easily, the way he was to come. He took four days. He was not very far, maybe just in the neighborhood, the other village. He came. The sisters had become very, very depressed. And when he came, the body had started stinking. They had put it in a cave, because the message had come that Jesus was coming: “So wait. Don’t bury the body, keep it.”
When Jesus came, the two sisters started crying and weeping and they said, “You are late. Too late. Now what can be done? The body has started deteriorating. It is stinking. Nobody can go near the body. Now it is so difficult. How to bury it? – because nobody wants to go into the cave and take the body out. Even from outside it is stinking.”
Jesus said, “Don’t be worried. Let me go to the cave.” They went, and the whole town gathered, and the body must have been stinking because Jesus also did not enter.
He called from the outside. Is this a way to call? Somebody is dead and from the outside you are calling, “Lazarus, come out?” Lazarus was a miracle man. He came out; he said, “Yes sir, I am here.”
This is a parable; it is not a historical fact. This is how the master calls the disciple – out of your death, out of your stinking cave where you are just rotting and rotting and deteriorating, deteriorating every day. He calls you out of your death. So I call to Chintana, “Come out of your mind,” because mind is death, because mind is time. If you live in the mind, you live in death. If you drop the mind, you live in eternity, deathlessness. And that’s what religion is all about. Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism are just names for the same process. A great opportunity is here. Chintana can drop her life-negative attitudes. To be a nun means to be against life. And to be against life means to be against God, because life is God. To be against love is to be against God. To be against your body is to be against God, because it is God’s body. It is his temple, his shrine; he has chosen to reside in it. Don’t destroy it, don’t be against it.
My approach is absolutely life-affirmative. And I call this religious approach, yes-saying – saying yes to all. Jesus was able to say yes even to death, and you are not even able to say yes to your life. Learn first to say yes to life, then one day that pinnacle, that consummation, that fulfillment also happens when you can say yes to death too – because you have learned to say yes, and you have enjoyed saying yes, and you have seen how beautiful it is to go on saying yes.
Remember, the ego always says no. The no is the way of the ego. That’s why when children start saying no, know well they are starting to become egoistic. At a certain stage the child starts saying no, and starts enjoying saying no. Whatsoever you say, he says, “No!” No-saying comes easily at a certain stage. Why does he say no? – because he has to create the ego. Only through the no is the ego created. Say no more often, and more ego is created. Say yes more, and ego starts dispersing. If you have uttered a deep yes to your total life – with no reservations – then the ego disappears. In that yes is your prayerfulness. But first one has to learn to say yes to life, only then can you say yes to death. How will you be able to say yes to death if you cannot even say yes to life and joy?
Never be a nun, and never be a so-called monk. This is an ugly state, pathological, neurotic, hysterical. But why has it been chosen down the ages? There is a certain trick in it, a strategy. The nun is taught to say no to her body, no to her sex, no to her love, no to all relationships, so all doors are closed. She cannot say yes to any life experience. Then, naturally, her yes-saying heart feels very suffocated, prevented from every door and window. In that state of suffocation she starts saying yes to Christ, because one has to say yes. But this is a pathological yes, this is not real. It is coercion, it is violence.
Do you follow me? When you don’t say yes to anything, it is as if you are in a desert. You are lost and you cannot see any oasis anywhere, and for days you have been thirsty and thirsty and thirsty, and the thirst becomes absolute. Then you can even drink your own urine. People are known to have done that. They can drink the urine of the camel. They can kill the camel and drink the water that he reserves in his body. Nauseating, but it can be done. When there is no possibility of any other water, and you are thirsty and the thirst goes on becoming fiery, intense, then you can drink anything – the dirtiest water – and you can drink it as if it were the water of life.
You need not be a Morarji Desai. You can drink your urine without being a Morarji Desai if you are in a desert. Then you will understand his idea that urine is “the water of life” – but only in a desert, unless you are neurotic. Now he is trying to do two things in India. One he has started: that is prohibition. First the country has to go through prohibition. And the next step – logical step – will be to start forcing people to drink their urine, because that is the water of life. You need not be a Morarji Desai. If you are lost in a desert you will start drinking anything. When you are hungry and you cannot get food, you will eat anything. Then you cannot and will not be very choosy. You cannot say, “Where is the menu?” – those things will look like nonsense. If you are hungry in a desert, you don’t ask for the menu. You will jump on whatsoever is available – whatsoever!
That is the trick: say no to sex, so that you are sex-starved – sex goes on accumulating in you. You want to love somebody and that is not possible. Love is not possible. You cannot love any human being – that door is closed. And your love capacity is just like a thirst: it goes on accumulating. You start loving Christ, and then it is pathological. Nuns have been known to report that Christ comes in the night and makes love to them, that he comes and fondles their breasts. Nuns have been known to have become pregnant because Christ made love to them. Of course their pregnancy was nothing but hot air, but the stomach… It was found to be a false pregnancy, but the idea… These are pathological states.
When your love is starved, naturally only one direction is left open. It is as if all the doors of the house are closed, only one hole is left open, and the house is on fire. Then you will not think of propriety, you will not think whether it is proper to get out of the house through this hole. You will get out of the house. Any hole will do. This is the situation that has been created for monks and nuns. Starve their love, and their love has to become focused on Jesus. But this is coercion. This is not conversion. This is not transformation. This is a very ugly state of affairs.
My own approach is just the opposite. I say: “Make love as much as possible.” Make it a celebration as much as possible. Let Jesus enter from joy. You love a woman, you love a man; you love so deeply that suddenly one day you start feeling the depth of the man or the woman. That depth will be the door of Jesus, or Krishna – or whatsoever name you want to give to it. Love deeply, so deeply that the body of the beloved disappears, that the mind of the beloved disappears, that even the self disappears. Love so deeply, go so deeply into each other, that one day you are just two skies, utterly clean and virgin, interpenetrating each other. In that very moment you will know that your beloved has become the door.
Celebrate! Let God come through celebration, and then you will have a health, a wholeness. I call that holy.
Nuns and monks are unholy people. They need psychiatric treatment; their minds are not in harmony. They cannot be in harmony because they have taken such an ugly course, unnatural, perverted. So listening to me, this question is going to come to you again and again. Let it be very clear from the beginning. I am bringing to you a totally new Jesus, a far truer Jesus than the Vatican has given to you. And I want Jesus to come to you through life, through love, through light – not through perversion, not through repression.

The second question:
Osho,
The Gospels provide no techniques for developing a loving heart. The Gospels are also too difficult for ordinary people. Perhaps this is why the Christian message has always seemed less practical than, say, Buddha’s.
The question is from Nirvan.
First, love is not based on any techniques. The path of love knows no technique; that’s why in the Gospels no techniques are given for developing your love.
The path of intelligence, Gyana Yoga, the path of knowing, of course has many techniques. Meditation is a technique. Intelligence moves though techniques. Intelligence always creates technology. If intelligence goes into science, then it creates technology. If it goes into spirituality, it creates Yoga, Tantra – they are also technologies for the inner being. Intelligence is technological. It always finds ways, shortcuts, how to do things more efficiently. Wherever you apply intelligence you will find better ways to reach the goal – faster, speedier, with less inconvenience, with less cost – that’s what intelligence is.
But the path of love, Bhakti Yoga – and Jesus is a bhakta, a devotee – knows no techniques. Love is not a technique. Please remember, love is not a technique and cannot be a technique, and if you bring technique into love, you will destroy it. That’s what is happening in the West. There are many love techniques available in the West. Everybody is learning from books how to make love, and how to make love more efficiently, more skillfully, and how to have greater orgasms, and all that. Now, all these things – many books are available – are making people incapable of being in love.
There is a problem to be understood. If you are too interested in technique, you will not achieve orgasm. Impossible! Your whole concern will be the technique – how to do it. If you become too interested in Vatsyayana and his love postures, then you will be doing a kind of gymnastics, exercises. But love will disappear.
Love needs no technique. Can’t you see? Animals love, birds love, trees love, and if you have eyes to see, the whole existence is love energy. But there is no technique. It is natural, it is spontaneous. Technique is against spontaneity. Love is spontaneity, not a technique. It needs only that you drop your being into the heart. Through the head there is no way toward love, it is through the heart. And remember that the heart is capable of moving into love from the very beginning. It is just like a roseflower opening. You need not open it, it has the capacity to open. That capacity is built-in, it is intrinsic. The roseflower opens of its own accord – so opens the heart. The heart needs no training. If you give training to it you will destroy it, because through training you will destroy the spontaneity.
That’s why in the Gospels no techniques are given. Techniques cannot exist on that path. Buddha appeals to you. Every day Buddha is gaining more and more followers in the West, because the West has become very, very mind-oriented. Intelligence has become predominant in the West. The West has become technological about everything. So, when you read about Buddha or Patanjali or Vatsayana, it has immense appeal; it simply fits with you. Your whole being says, “Yes, it must be so!” You are ready to accept Buddha, Patanjali, Mahavira.
The grip of Christ is lessening on the West. The reason is that the West no longer goes through the heart; it bypasses the heart. People are Christian because they are born Christians, but every day the appeal of Christ is becoming less and less and less. Buddha will fit better. Patanjali even more. Immediate appeal will be there because there is logic, there is intelligence, and there is a clear-cut path – what has to be done.
Love is not a doing. It is a happening; it is a trust, not a technique. Jesus says, “Love God.” If you can love, then there is no problem. If you cannot love, then Jesus is not the way for you. Then you will have to search for Buddha. On the path of Buddha, love is non-existent; emotion, sentiment, love are non-existent. Buddha says, “Those who are very, very emotional and loving have to find other ways. My way is not their way.”
Do you know that for many years Buddha was very resistant to initiating women? He rejected it again and again. Many times appeals were made to him, “Why don’t you initiate women?” And he would say, “No. My path is the path of intelligence, not of love, and if women are allowed to enter it, they will destroy my whole thing.” When too much pressure was put on him – he was a very, very democratic man and he understood that it was not right to deprive women – he finally, but very reluctantly, agreed. The day he initiated women he declared, “My path was going to remain pure for at least five thousand years, but now I can only hope for five hundred years, not more than that.” And that’s exactly how it happened.
Through the entry of the woman, Buddhism started changing its character, because the woman brings love. Once Buddha had gone, the whole quality of Buddhism changed; it became absolutely the opposite. If Buddha comes back he will not be able to recognize the Buddhism that is prevalent in China, Burma, Thailand. He will not be able to recognize it, because its whole quality has changed. Now Buddha is thought to be God, and people are praying to him – and his whole life he was saying that prayer is nonsense, only meditation will do. He was utterly on the path of intelligence; prayer was meaningless. And he was saying, “There is no God, so to whom are you praying? It is crazy.” And he was saying, “Nobody can help you except yourself.”
The last message on his deathbed was… Ananda, his chief disciple asked, “Bhagwan, give us your last message.” And he said, “Ananda, appa dipo bhava: Become a light unto yourself.” There is no other light, so don’t look into the sky, don’t look at me. There is no other light. Be a light unto yourself. Your own intelligence has to become your light, depend utterly upon yourself – no other dependence, no shelter anywhere, no refuge.
He was one of the most intelligent persons born on the earth, but soon, once he had gone, the quality started changing. And it is a surprise of history that Buddhism became the source of Tantra, the source of love techniques. Buddhism became the source of love techniques. It is utterly against Buddha. There is no relationship between them, but it had to be so. Once women entered – they came in great crowds, and they have very loving hearts so they can fall into anything very easily – soon the proportion between men and women was one to four. One man to four women – they predominated. And with them came love, tenderness, softness, femininity, receptivity. With them came everything that Buddha was holding out against. The quality changed: Buddha became a God, was worshipped and prayed to. Temples were erected, images were built, and all that which Buddha had been saying was not possible on his path, entered and bloomed.
I am not saying that something went wrong. Nothing went wrong, because so many people attain through love. But Buddha’s purity was lost. His absolute grip on intelligence was lost. The path became more and more the meeting of the opposites.
To me, it is very good. Nothing like this has happened on Jesus’ path. Nobody has come on Jesus’ path who would bring intelligence and the path of intelligence into it, no. Nothing has happened like that. Jesus’ path has remained purer in that way. It is the path of prayer, of love: love of the whole existence, love of God – God simply means the whole. You will not find any techniques there. If you are looking for techniques in the Gospels, you are looking in the wrong place. Look for techniques in Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras, look for techniques in Vigyan Bhairav Tantra: look for techniques somewhere else. Jesus is a lover. If you can love, nothing else is needed. If you cannot love, you cannot be helped on that path. Then forget about it, it is not for you.
The problem is arising… Nirvan wants to love and cannot love, so he wants to find some techniques. But love never happens through techniques, so you are asking for the impossible. Follow the path of intelligence. If Buddha appeals to you, there is no problem. Forget about Jesus. Buddha will do.
“The Gospels provide no techniques for developing a loving heart” – because there are none. “The Gospels are also too difficult for ordinary people.” There, you are absolutely wrong. The Gospels are difficult only for intellectuals, not for ordinary people. Jesus moved with ordinary people; he was very much against intellectuals. He was all for the ordinary people. His whole disciplehood came from very ordinary people, because the ordinary people have a purer heart, naturally. The intellectuals lose their hearts; they become hung-up in the head. They think about love but they cannot love. Even sometimes when they say that they are in love, they only think that they are in love.
Love is not possible through the head. It is as impossible as somebody trying to see through the ears, or to listen through the eyes. You cannot listen through the eyes, and you cannot see through the ears, because they are not meant for it. Intelligence is not meant for love. For that a different faculty exists in you: the heart. The intellectual is trained for the head; the schools, the colleges, the universities all train for the head. The more and more clever, intelligent, calculating you become, the more and more difficult it becomes to love. That’s why Jesus moved with ordinary people, because ordinary people are extraordinarily loving people. The so-called extraordinary intellectuals are very ordinary lovers.
So how can it be that you say the Gospels are also too difficult for ordinary people? No, sir, they are not. If they are difficult for you it simply shows that you are difficult for them, that you are too much in the head. The Gospels cannot be approached from the head. Through tears, yes – through logic, no. Through dancing, yes; through singing, yes; through chanting, yes – but through argumentation, no. You must be approaching in the wrong way. You must be bringing your head into the Gospels.
They are very simple phenomena – like flowers, like rivers. Jesus lived with ordinary people. He is the past master of how to relate to ordinary people. Buddha lived with extraordinary people: great scholars, great intelligent people, poets, philosophers; his atmosphere was that of intelligence. Jesus walked with the fisherman, with the woodcutter, with the shoemaker. These Gospels are those dialogues. They were between Jesus and very ordinary people. In fact, he himself was very ordinary. He was not the son of a king but a carpenter’s son. He could not say anything that could not be understood by ordinary people.
But I understand your problem. It is difficult for you. Then it is not for you. Don’t be unnecessarily worried about it. Look for something that is for you. There are a thousand and one doors; the door is irrelevant. The real question is to get into God; by what door you enter will not make any difference. Enter – that is significant. So let Buddha be your door.
“Perhaps this is why the Christian message has always seemed less practical than, say, Buddha’s.” It depends. If you are a very, very intellectual person, Buddha’s approach will look very practical and Jesus’ approach will look impractical. If you are a loving person, Buddha’s will look impractical and Jesus’ will look very practical. It depends. It depends more on you how it looks. If something suits you, it is practical for you. If something does not suit you, it is impractical. And there is no need to remain hooked with the impractical.

The third question:
Osho,
Why is Jesus thought to be born out of a virgin mother?
There are a few points to be understood…
One: Jesus can be born only out of a virgin woman. But remember, virginity has nothing to do with celibacy – not, at least, for me. Virginity is something immensely different. Don’t reduce it to sex.
Sex can be virgin, and celibacy may not be virgin. Things are very complicated. If a man is celibate and thinks constantly of sex, he is not virgin. On the other hand, if a man makes love to a woman, or the woman makes love to a man, and there is no thought of sex – no sexuality in the head, no cerebral sex – it is virgin. Virgin means pure. Virgin means uncontaminated. Virgin means spontaneous. Virgin means simple, innocent.
Now, sex is not the problem. Sexuality is the problem. There are people who are continually thinking of sex. And the more you try to enforce some celibacy on yourself – you become a nun or a monk – the more you think of sex. In fact, you don’t think about anything else, you only think of sex because that is your starved part. It takes revenge, it becomes very aggressive. It comes again and again, bubbles up, surfaces in the head. You go on saying prayers to keep it repressed, and you go on doing this and that – a thousand and one things. But whenever there is rest, it is there. You go to sleep and it is there. It becomes your dream, it becomes your fantasy. If you repress it too much, it then starts coming through different symbols. They may not be sexual on the surface but deep down they are sexual.
Sexuality means that sex has entered into the head, but why has sex entered into the head in the first place? It enters into the head if you repress it. Anything repressed enters into the head. Try for three days: go on a fast, and the thought of food will enter into the head. For seven days don’t take a bath… I am not talking about hippies. If you are a hippie, then this won’t do. For seven days don’t take a bath, and that will enter into your head. For three, four days don’t sleep, and that will enter in your head. Then you will be continuously thinking of sleep, sleep will be continuously coming and you will be yawning. Whatsoever is starved enters the head, and when something enters the head your whole being becomes polluted with it.
By virginity, I mean that Mary must have been in a very, very non-sexual state. She must have been a very innocent woman. She must not have been thinking about sex; she must have made love, but that love was innocent. There was no idea in it; the mind was not interfering. It was completely uncontaminated by the mind, uninterfered with by the mind. That’s what we in Tantra say is real love.
Ordinarily what do you do? You see a woman, a beautiful woman, and you start fantasizing. “A beautiful woman… How to take her to bed?” Now you start planning. Now there is great turmoil and calculation inside – how to introduce yourself to her, and how to “make it.” On the surface you don’t show that; it continues inside: calculation, thinking, planning, designing. When you talk to her you don’t show any indication that you are sexually interested in her – because she may feel offended. Things may go wrong from the very beginning. You talk about other things – poetry, literature – and you are not concerned with poetry and literature at all. You are concerned somehow with how to jump into bed. You are planning inside, but on the surface you are showing interest in art, in music, you are praising the music that is on. But deep down, you are waiting for something else. This is non-virginity.
You meet a woman, you don’t think about sex at all. Only pathological people think about sex, healthy people don’t think about sex. There is no need. You enjoy the beauty of the woman – her face, her eyes, her proportion – you are simply thrilled by her being. There is no idea to do anything to her, there is no idea to exploit, there is no idea to possess. You are immensely interested, but very innocently. There is no planning in your mind, there is no future, then it is a virgin relationship. One day love can happen. One day listening to music, dancing together, love can possess you both: you can make love to each other. But even while making love, there is no idea – there is no mind in it. It is innocent of mind, then it is a virgin relationship.
If you ask me, then this is what I mean by virgin. Jesus cannot be born in the way Christians say – that is absurd, stupid. But why do they say that he was born out of a virgin mother? They are too obsessed with sex, and to them it seems degrading that Jesus should come out of sex, out of an ordinary love relationship. That looks very, very disturbing to them. Their God, their master, their savior coming through the ordinary passage of sex? No, it is not possible. If Jesus can come through sex, then how will they condemn sex? Then how will they tell their nuns and their monks, “Don’t ever go into sex. It is ugly, it is the greatest sin there is”? If Jesus himself enters the world through natural love, it will be difficult to condemn it. Then a nun can say, “Who knows, maybe Jesus wants to come through me?” Or a monk can say, “Who knows? Joseph never knew. Who knows maybe Jesus wants to come through me?”
If Jesus can come through love, love is enhanced, enthroned. Then love becomes a great value. If Jesus comes through love, then love will have a splendor to it, and that is difficult for the pathological people. They condemn sex, because through condemning sex they can control people, they can make them feel guilty – that is their strategy. Make people feel guilty, and they become slaves and serfs. Make them feel guilty and they are always crawling. Make them feel guilty and you can exploit them. Make them feel guilty and they will come crawling to the churches and to the mosques and to the temples, and they will never be rebellious. They will be so afraid – they are sinners, they have to be saved. Create the idea in them that they are sinners, then certainly they will start searching and seeking how to be saved. Then you can trap them into the church. You can say to them, “This is the only way to be saved – only those who go through Jesus will be saved.”
The more they are trembling, the more they are afraid, the closer death is coming, the more they will start coming to the church, and the more they will believe in any nonsense that you say. This has been used by the priest and the politician to exploit people, to repress people, to oppress people, to dominate people. They cannot say that Jesus comes through ordinary love; they want to make it special. And this tendency exists in all the religions. Somehow they want to make their master special. Jainas say that Mahavira’s perspiration does not smell – in fact, he does not perspire. He does not defecate – he’s not an ordinary human being. Defecation, urinating, are very ordinary things – Mahavira does not do that.
Now, that seems to be the longest case in the history of constipation: forty-two years. I have heard about the record; the record is one hundred and twelve days. The greatest record known to medical science is one hundred and twelve days. One man retained that long. But Mahavira: forty-two years. Now you cannot compete with Mahavira. This is absurd, this is foolish, but that’s how things go.
Every religion tries to make something special of the master, and the masters are the most ordinary people, because they are non-egos. They are very simple people. But the disciple’s ego is in trouble, the disciple’s ego wants to find something which is special – so special that nobody else can claim it. Christians have found it through this idea of virginity. They say that Jesus was born out of the Virgin Mary through the Holy Ghost. But why can’t the Holy Ghost come in the usual way through Joseph – as he always comes? Why did he get lost? Why did he go astray?
I have heard…

The problems of the world were weighing heavily on God’s shoulders and he confessed the need for a rest.
“Why don’t you take a short vacation, Boss?” suggested the archangel Gabriel.
“Yes, but where?”
“How about the little place, Earth? You haven’t been there for a good while.”
“No, no. It’s a world of busybodies,” shuddered God. “I was there two thousand years ago and that’s enough. I had an affair with a little Jewish girl, and they’re still talking about it.”

Christians are obsessed. This is a very ill state of affairs.
To me, virginity means innocence. And naturally, Jesus can only come out of innocence. Such a flower can only bloom in innocence. Mary must have been a virgin – virgin in my sense. She must have been pure love. She must have been as innocent as the animals. She must have been a perfect animal – that is the meaning – like a cow. Look into the eyes of a cow. Those eyes must have been the eyes of Mary. Jesus can only come through such simplicity, such innocence.

The fourth question:
Osho,
If somebody kills you… Then?
Then somebody kills me. So what?
I don’t see any problem in it. Life is good, so is death.
All is good; you need not choose. Choice brings conflict. If you choose life against death you are creating a dichotomy in your being. If somebody kills me, he kills me. There is nothing more to it.
Life is good, so death is going to be good. And death is going to happen, whether somebody kills or not. Death is the culmination of life, the fulfillment of life. Death is not against life, death is the crescendo, the greatest peak of life. Death is the greatest orgasm. That’s why I say that even on the cross Jesus was laughing. He must have been enjoying the whole joke.

The last question:
Osho,
Why did you end up your talk yesterday abruptly? Hot date? Anyhow I’m caught in the words of this series. Would you explain the Beautitude about those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake.
There was nothing esoteric about it. Just my bladder was hurting and it is hurting again. I am not a Mahavira, so I will not be answering it.
Enough for today.